Trigger warnings!

Whilst a lot of the content I will be posting is safe for work, there will be times that in order to fully explain what it’s like to live with a mental health problem I have to talk about subjects some people might find uncomfortable or distressing. I will try to include trigger warnings at the beginning of certain posts.

We all feel vulnerable at times and if you know the subject is potentially going to cause you emotional strain, please, please, please wait until you are in the right frame of mind to read the post. I won’t be editing my life experiences down because I feel they are really important to include and not censor. We have to do enough self censoring in our lives already. Especially when it comes to our work colleagues and acquaintances. This is a place I can speak my truth and feel obliged to put on a mask. Please remember also that my opinions are my own. I don’t speak for any groups or individuals other than myself.

Anyway, enjoy me rambling about things and stay safe.

Hello to older and wiser

Hello again.

My name's Out of darkness. It's important to say before I start anything that I'm not the best of writers so I apologise in advance for what will probably be some appalling grammar. Whilst it's not my forte I do however enjoy it and find it therapeutic.

I had a blog back in 2015/2016 where I talked about a mental health condition I live with called Borderline Personality Disorder. I wrote a fair bit about my experiences and daily life; that was until I started psychotherapy. It pulled the rug out from under my feet and for a while sent me spiralling into an emotional turmoil I had absolutely no idea how to write about. The blog went silent and that was it. I went back to keeping a personal journal, which I barely wrote in despite knowing it would help me. Sometimes mental illness does some interesting things to us.

So here I am popping up 2 years later in 2018. I’m still in psychotherapy, but it’s drawing to a close. At the end of December I will complete my final session with the Complex Needs and Personality Disorder Service. It’s a frightening, but exciting time for me and my family. This next step in my journey to recovery has inspired me once again to start blogging about my experiences.

You can look forward to me sharing my very personal experience of BPD and also hopefully some factual information about the disorder here and there. I hope that this new blog will not only be beneficial to me, but that maybe it might help others dealing with mental health problems or even their friends and family.